Where you been?

I've been missing in action here lately... and I guess the only thing I can say is that I've been a bit too deep in thought. I know that sounds strange to you, but it's true. I've had a lot on my mind lately and I can't seem to make heads or tails with it all. To be brutally honest, my motivation mode kinda slipped off again. It's very frustrating since I know there are so many things I am trying to do... all at one time too. But then again, that's probably where my problem is.

Most of the time, I'm my own worst critic. Lets put it this way. I've often repeated this but just for a refresher, I'll say it again. I think I have my hand in too many cookie jars. I've taken such a high interest in everything I'm doing! I've even made this comment to a few people here lately. I think I am experiencing some sort of mid life crisis. Oh I'd have to make a list out of all the things that is taking all of my time. I'll even sit here in front of my computer for hours at a time... and not do anything but browse, research, study, read... you get the idea.

I had a story line already set aside for this but since it's on my mind... why not go ahead and engage! If I am not doing any kind of design work, then reading/researching different things is what I'm most likely doing. What I mean is the internet is kinda like my brother. You see... having a brother is something that I'll never get to experience. But google... will tell me almost anything I need to know. Now google will never take the place of what a real brother would be able to give but when I need to know something, or I have a question about something, I turn to google. I have a ton of questions about a lot of things. I'm just interested, that's all!

So that's really what I've been doing here lately. Googling all kinds of things, reading, studying researching, thinking... I'm just interested!