After graduation

So I'm free from school and I'm back out on the streets! Ouch! I forgot what that feeling was like. Except this time it was a whole new ball game. The plan was to find a job doing what I studied in school. The economy was already sucking and I was a bit nervous to say the least about my new path in life. I really struggled for a few months with not going back to the quarry life. It was a job that I was confident in and knew I could do. But that was the whole reason I left that life... to make a new one.

While I was going through all these emotions, I had a couple of things going on in my life that were not making things any easier. Mom was going through knee replacement surgery. I mean she was at my portfolio show one day (Thursday) and the next day (Friday) she was in the hospitable getting prepped for surgery. This was going to be a bit of an uphill climb for mom cause she had to go through therapy before she could come home. 

This time of my life was actually a massive roller coaster ride for me. I can't say that it was a fun ride either. It was a roller coaster ride of emotions. You gotta think about something here... I was in school for 2 years and my life only consisted of school work, homework, project assignments and then being committed to my part time jobs that I had throughout my college years. Every hour of my life was spoken for.

So after graduation, you could say my wall of emotions came down pretty hard. I just didn't have time to be emotional in school. There were always ups and downs in school but nothing really emotion... except the feeling of me graduating college.

So we have mom and her knee. Then I had to look for work and actually started working at Walgreens just to make ends meet until I found something more my style. In addition to all of this mess, our dog Jack was to the point of no more. This was a very sad time in my life as I got very close to that doggie. We eventually had to put him down. And holy mother... I hadn't felt that much pain since my dad passed nearly 20 years ago.

On top of that I had one of my best friends that I met in college moving away to Texas. Mercy... it was just one thing right after another.

Then my walking ceremony for callege graduation was knocking on the door. This was December of 2009 and we were having some serious rain storms that year. And you'd know it was raining like a cow pissing on a flat rock that night. Plus, it was cold and there were some warnings of sleet in the area. So my mom, the most important person that I wanted to be present at my walking ceremony was not able to be there.

Good grief... I was so wrapped tight that I didn't know whether I was coming or going. With the way everything were going, I was just not happy in life. And to be quite honest, after all the dust cleared and I was able to sit back and take everything in, I became very sad and was dealing with a plate full of depression. Nothing in life felt worth a crap and I definitely wasn't feeling the glory I was hoping to feel.

I knew of only one thing at this time. And that was knowing that I was gonna make it. I didn't know how and I didn't know when but I just knew I would make it if I could just hang on. This time of my life wasn't easy nor was it any fun.

I was not expecting a cinderella story after graduation but I wasn't expecting this kind of story either. But yet again I made through. I will say this much... depression is a very wicked thing and I am very sensitive to people that are going through this kind if sickness. Let me sum it up for you in a few words. Depression is the kind of sickness to where anything and everything in your life just completely sucks. It's even extremely hard to find the good in the best of things.

Fast forward to now, things have definitely made a huge turn and I'm happier than ever. So stick around and hear what has got this bald guy so happy!!!