Broken record

You know... I keep thinking to myself... What's wrong with you? What are these feelings? Why won't this strange funk go away? But I never can seem to find any answers. I haven't felt like this in... well never. I've been through depression, sadness, anger, strife and even extreme happiness. I sorta understand why I am feeling this way but then again I have no idea why I am feeling this way. Whatever it is, I just can't seem to shake it. I have lost every bit of the drive that I had when I was in school. I'm not complaining at all... just wondering I guess. Wondering when I am going to get kicking with everything. Wondering is the key word here! I just keep wondering when I can start to move forward and regain the drive I once had. Right now, wondering is my broken record.

I sometimes think back to my days at the quarry and think... God, I'm so glad I'm done with that phase in my life. I clearly left a comfort zone by quiting a job I'd been working for nearly 10 years. Before the first 10 years, I worked a job doing the same occupation for nearly 4 years. So lets just say I spent 14 years of my life doing this one thing... and that was all I knew how to do.

Then the next thing I know is that I've got a nice camera and I'm taking pictures of everything in site. Then I start thinking about other possibilities and before you know it, I'm attending college in pursuit of an Interactive Media degree. Something I thought I'd never do. College!

So what's the deal with the broken record title you ask? Well, it's playing over and over in my head. I just need to figure out how to insert a new record and place the needle at the beginning and let the music play. I have been doing a lot of thinking about a lot of things. And I intend on sharing them with you. If you can just be patient with me and let me figure out how to find my new record, then maybe by then I'll figure out how place the needle at the beginning of the record.