Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
What's going on?
That's actually a good question. One that I can't seem to figure out. I feel like I'm just floating around taking up space with no direction what-so-ever. I mean... what do I say, what do I do. How about these three words. I don't know!
In the past three months, I've been on quite an emotional roller coaster. I was just in college right? Where's that fire, that passion and that zeal? Where's the energy and that ball of ambition that I felt building up inside of me for the last two years? I don't know! I just wrote a little power story for myself ( just below this story ) on trying to pick myself back up from whatever this funk is but as of right now; it was just words. Lets just say for lack of better terms that I've been completely unmotivated. No edge for anything.
So what am I going to do about this? I don't know! Ride it out probably. I just can't put my finger on it. Like I said. I feel like I'm floating around in space with out a cause. We all go though times like this but this time for me it seems to be a pretty deep rut I've slipped into. I thought that after I got good and out of school, I'd be burning up my keyboard typing the stories I have archived, building my web and video portfolio. Oh I've got some ideas but I just keep adding them to my "to do" list.
I will say this much. Ever since I've graduated, I've been on a heck of an emotional roller coaster and the worst of it was this past week. I'll most definitely go into detail about it all when the time comes. For know I'm just going to give myself a break because you can't live on the cutting edge all the time. I have to think that times like this are learning curves for the next adventure. All I know is that I'm ready to get out of this funk and I'm ready to get back on track with this blog. Because I love it and I love to share the experiences that I have. Especially the ones I dream about. So is it all good now? Are you saying your getting your fire back? Are you... Brian Bunn saying that ambition that was building up is getting ready to come out? I don't know. I really don't know anything that I'm saying these days but I do know how I feel. Empty. Lets hope that after the holidays, I'll find that zeal! I'm ready... that's for sure.
I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas and may God bless you in every way possible!
In the past three months, I've been on quite an emotional roller coaster. I was just in college right? Where's that fire, that passion and that zeal? Where's the energy and that ball of ambition that I felt building up inside of me for the last two years? I don't know! I just wrote a little power story for myself ( just below this story ) on trying to pick myself back up from whatever this funk is but as of right now; it was just words. Lets just say for lack of better terms that I've been completely unmotivated. No edge for anything.
So what am I going to do about this? I don't know! Ride it out probably. I just can't put my finger on it. Like I said. I feel like I'm floating around in space with out a cause. We all go though times like this but this time for me it seems to be a pretty deep rut I've slipped into. I thought that after I got good and out of school, I'd be burning up my keyboard typing the stories I have archived, building my web and video portfolio. Oh I've got some ideas but I just keep adding them to my "to do" list.
I will say this much. Ever since I've graduated, I've been on a heck of an emotional roller coaster and the worst of it was this past week. I'll most definitely go into detail about it all when the time comes. For know I'm just going to give myself a break because you can't live on the cutting edge all the time. I have to think that times like this are learning curves for the next adventure. All I know is that I'm ready to get out of this funk and I'm ready to get back on track with this blog. Because I love it and I love to share the experiences that I have. Especially the ones I dream about. So is it all good now? Are you saying your getting your fire back? Are you... Brian Bunn saying that ambition that was building up is getting ready to come out? I don't know. I really don't know anything that I'm saying these days but I do know how I feel. Empty. Lets hope that after the holidays, I'll find that zeal! I'm ready... that's for sure.
I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas and may God bless you in every way possible!
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